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(borg18)
In August 1918 I was expelled from Netherlands India on
account of revolutionary propaganda in India my daily paper De
Expres". With my wife and my three little children I went to
Europe in exile. I had a good living in Meth. India, I was a
well-to-do man. Te had no Sorrows or cares. All at once this
all ended. A cruel and cowardly Government threw me out of my
sphere without even a judicial process to give her shameful deed
the annearance of Right. Our life in Europe (mostly in Switzer-
land, Geneva and Zurich) was one series of hardshipa. We have
known days, when all money was gone, when there was not to pay our
food of tomorrow; when we had debts only, debts on all sides. We
have known days of hunger, when we did not eat, so that there would
be something for the children. Matsed and embitterment filled my
hearth. I avore to ravenge me on a government, that had made us
auffer undeservedly to such degree and extent.
In February 1915 all was to an end. I borrowed money, again
for the 20th time may be, and gent my wife and children back to
Java. She thought to be able to earn something by keeping a
boarding house and by giving lessons. Than the hardest time began
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for myself, I was a student then at the University of Zurich.
The study (I did my Doctor Examination in 8 months) the loneline33,
that whole life of worry, living like a poor workman, my wretchedness
end setf accusation that I was the cause of all the misery of those,
who I loved no dearly o, why do we always kill, those we love
all that broke me mentally.
I began taking morphia to appease my
siness, to be able to study and banish my thoughts. I hated the
drug and hated myself for taking it, and grew weaker and weaker and