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me
the statement that my memory was at fault in, permitting
to say that what I appear to have told Mr. Johnson and others was so told to them by the positive instructions of the Governor.
10.
Finally I beg to
submit to Your Lordship that throughout this correspondence I have scrupulously refrained from divulging any confidential communication which His Excellency the Governor made to me whilst I was his Private Secretary, except those statements
which
which His Excellency subsequently
instructed me to repeat to others and which were necessary for
my defence, and that I even then refrained from mentioning
absolutely
many other facts and abstained from referring to other persons, it not being necessary for my defence, although I would have considerably strengthened my position by doing so. Painful
as it is to me to have to
say
so much, on this unpleasant subject, I felt it my duty to
reputation,
to
my
in the Service and
my own
position
to
my family to say
what I
which
have said in these papers