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power which I execrated,
The feeling, novine, is little to my
I panted for revenge.
however, is so little inherent to my nature, that I would soon have forgotten, had not persecution in
its lowest form followed me.
Gradually embittered,
I have sworn never to return home,
at least as long as power remains in the hands of those whom I hate.
Still more :
accustomed as I am
to what is called "High life" and to scientific pursuits, I can live abroad in France, Prussia, Austria, or England;
in England then and in
her laws will I seek for protection and for a home.
As that newly formed
resolution could not well
agree with the plans I had conceived, I reflected upon the motives that had given rise to them, and I acknowledged their trickedness and their folly.
Of the Considerations
That I have alluded to
Now to the other
I have passed
The three years,
the Chinese have taught me not to repose any faith in them. Dealing with the Mandarins I may
receive a large sum at London, undoubtedly.
But I doubt the pension would
be paid beyond
a year or two -
the eve of Civil
dissolution. To plan
for the Frands
of the greedy mandarins a revenue
such must necessarily
arise from my
Overt
discovery would render them
towards strangers, and I forbearing would become the first victim.
Another suggestion presents
itself - "Why do I not keep boosting
my
I have done until
merensing only the Juan
secret.
now
to my prove
The lesson is soon told. I may come to that, but only if I cannot
do otherwise.
I have easily obtained the ingredients I require, and in large
quantities. Lately, however, it seems that I have excited the cupidity of a good many persons.
I am watched not only by the Chinese and the Portuguese, but also by all the Strangers
resident in the South of China.
Some of these have even gone to the length of calling in chemists from Austria, from San Francisco, and from Australia, but good analytic chemists
are rare,
and
they have not yet
been
able to discover the origin of any of the ingredients used by me - My drug
Some
Almans with their and with Chinese No! Some opium pronounce it Persian, others Malwa; I tell them it comes from the Eastern
Coast of Africa -
Besides this, as I have said, I am single-handed - that is to say, I have an assistant, a friend, who manipulates some of the Compounds of my drug, the most bulky
ones. But he knows
literally nothing of the Concerns, and is quite incapable of going through the department. I have allotted to him the
preparatory work,
and he is not capable of recovery.
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